REALLY?

As I'm sitting in a cubicle in a hot office in midtown Manhattan with No AC i wonder why am I here??

No in a life is meaningless sense but in terms of my life in its present state. Why am i not home rehearsing my lines for an independent movie or at a run through for the off off Broadway play that? It's because I'm not there yet.I have to remind myself of that everyday. I'm not in a position at the moment to get what i want for my life to come to fruition. I have to just be patient and go with the flow.....FUCK THAT!!!! lol

When I was blessed to go London last year January (http://www.youtube.com/noles348  shameless plug! ) I was so amazed that God blessed me with that momentous experience. Foe me a kid from southern queens who had always dreamed to go to London, was widely fascinated with the country and its culture and Love for it's immaculate actors and acting technique to go there and study Theater in Shakespeare birthplace and see his tomb and all was life changing

When i came home i told myself and i would start making moves asap!!! But first I needed a job :(  and it took me awhile but i found one but all the while i wasn't really able to do much because I'm tied down to their schedule and was mentally blocked. So with that Job behind me (Saks is good company just didn't keep me WTF!lol). I'm at a new job in hospitality & Tourism which i enjoy but will i be able to finally get it together???